I need new glasses.
The last time I went to the optometrist was almost three years ago. And I'll be honest: the only true motivation I had for going was that Ashley found out she was pregnant. Not only because I wanted to be able to see the little critter as best as I could, but also because I knew that after she gave birth, finding the time to actually go anywhere, let alone an office where I could sit for an hour or so, was going to be next to impossible.
As my fellow optically challenged can attest, there's something refreshing and almost magical about the first time you put on a new pair of glasses (or contacts) after your prescription has changed. Things are clearer. You're able to focus better. And ultimately, you're not putting as much strain on your eyes, so you feel more relaxed.
So with that in mind, I'm trying to take a fresh look at my One Word for this year.
Part of my issue has been that at the outset, after God said "Yep. That word right there. That's yours this year," I just accepted it. I took it and started applying it to my life to where I thought it should go without actually trying to see where or how it fits into my puzzle. This isn't to say that there's not power in nor Biblical precedence in claiming something and acting on faith with it, but there is much, more more to it than just taking a word, phrase, or even Scripture passage without working on and through it.
It's like how, with every head bowed and every eye closed, you say a prayer to "begin a personal relationship with Jesus," but don't ever go further. You can say as many prayers as you like, but there's a reason that the Bible says we are to "Work hard to show the results of your salvation, obeying God with deep reverence and fear." (Philippians 2:12, emphasis added). The prayer can begin a good work (and a redemption) in you, but without actions evident in your life to illustrate your change, you not only malign the image of your fellow believers (how many times have we asked to not be lumped in and considered like "those" Christians?) but it also brings into doubt what actual change has taken place in you.
I am claiming shalam in me. I am claiming I am in a covenant of peace; at peace; complete; sound; and made whole and restored. But if I am honest with myself, what am I doing to make sure these claims are a reality? Am I truly wrestling with my past, laying oh so many ghosts to bed at last, or am I just spiritually spackling over things, without digging out - and letting the Spirit dig out as well - the old and rotten parts first?
So here I am, putting new glasses on my heart, and looking through this windshield anew. Let's start working.